The Blue-Eyed Woman from Hanoi

The Blue-Eyed Woman from Hanoi

I went to Vietnam to surf and was forgiven for a war. My knees were bent and nearly touching my stomach as I sat in a small, red plastic chair. I was dripping with sweat and sipping a beer on the curbside of a corner bia hoi in Hanoi, Vietnam. Feeling like a...
Panic Attack on a One-way Flight to Amsterdam

Panic Attack on a One-way Flight to Amsterdam

My life changed when I had my first panic attack on a one-way flight to Amsterdam from Seattle in the spring of 1993. I wasn’t aware at the time, but my dark plunge into what felt like insanity began my long and sometimes difficult road to mental health, calm, and...
Tedium – Waiting for The Cat in the Hat to Show Up

Tedium – Waiting for The Cat in the Hat to Show Up

When the bottom of bottles clink in the trash, the dirt on the bottom of your shoes refuses to fall off, and your head wakes up every day with throbbing pain, you know you’ve lost your innocence. But was it there in the first place? Is losing innocence a rite of...